Leaving Paros - hold on, that wasn't the plan! |
The phone rings.
It’s No.1 (and only) son, calling from Paros. No surprise there. I was expecting
his “I’ve arrived” call round about
now.
Early this morning, he was delivered by his dad to the ferry that would take him to the Cyclades for a few days holidays without us - the first time he was travelling solo outside of Attica. I wasn’t worried. The weather’s good. The trip’s just a few hours. He has a brain and tongue in his head. What could go wrong, right?
Early this morning, he was delivered by his dad to the ferry that would take him to the Cyclades for a few days holidays without us - the first time he was travelling solo outside of Attica. I wasn’t worried. The weather’s good. The trip’s just a few hours. He has a brain and tongue in his head. What could go wrong, right?
But there’s
something in his voice that alerts me.
It’s not the chirpy holiday tone I
expected, but one laced with anxiety and frustration.
He’s not calling from
portside. He’s still onboard, having finally located his bag (helpfully
moved to an entirely different part of the hold) only after the ship cast
off and started steaming its way across the sea to Naxos, and then on to Ios.
My heart twinges as I imagine his frustration and panic as he watched the port of
Parikia get smaller and smaller and prepared to call us and tell us the news.
Cue one frustrated 17-year-old, and an even more annoyed and anxious father.
So, as I
type, instead of heading for the beach to splash around like a happy maniac for
the next four hours, No.1 is enduring an extended sea trip that will see him do
the Paros-Naxos-Ios-Naxos-Paros round trip.
I try to
calm the men in my life, telling them that it’s not a big deal (especially as
the officials on board told him he can do the round trip without having to pay
any extra). It’s an experience, I say (hopefully a learning one). It’s an
adventure, I say. Maybe he’ll even see some dolphins or meet new and
interesting people.
But inside
I’m screaming “My poor baby!” and
fighting the rising sensation that it’s all MY fault. I had been
uncharacteristically calm about my teenage traveller’s first solo trip. Not a
single scenario popped into my head as I waved him off. So, of course, fate
took note, was duly tempted, and decided to throw a baggage handler’s spanner
in the works.
There’s
nothing I can do. I have to get all zen about it. He’s on his own and he will
be fine – even without me. It will be a lesson for him, and
probably more so for us. I just know I won’t breathe freely until he finally
reaches his original destination. At least he can just sit back and go with the
flow, watch the seagulls and have a story to tell afterwards.
Meanwhile, I'm sitting here chewing my toenails to the quick whilst smiling manically (and unconvincingly) at anyone who looks my way.
Blimey,
this “learning to let go” deal is a bitch, isn’t it?
UPDATE - 5.50pm:
Teen traveler safely disembarked in Paros. Let the holiday begin!
UPDATE - 5.50pm:
Teen traveler safely disembarked in Paros. Let the holiday begin!
We will never completely let go......our 6ft married man son is still 'my baby' in some ways....it just gets easier as they grow up.........and your lad will be fine and as you rightly say have a story to tell...
ReplyDeleteI've wondered about how this will feel... In a parallel universe kind of way I get it! Your post, Libby's comment, Mr One asleep in his cot upstairs... I feel relieved to have the answer already - we won't ever really let go!
ReplyDeleteSometimes it's the unexpected turns of events that are the MOST exciting ones! I hope he has a good trip :-)
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